Tuesday, January 29, 2008 @ 10:02 AM
1 more dae
haha... tml will be the BIG day... FYP tml.. wah~~ hope everything smooth smooth la.. =) after tml i will be a FREE MAN!!!! hahaha.. thurs and fri lesson will be a veri veri veri relax liao..hahaha nvm la... can dun even go sch lor.. tml tml tml tml tml tml... haha

bleah.. gd luck to serene... one more day... get it over and done with it.. haha and it will mark the end of my poly life...3 years

Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 11:55 PM
shopping
Today…haha I woke up at 12 plus… late late… tired ma.. since dun wan go training and lazy so I zzz till I siong lor.. =) rest!!.. woke up le I online and den went to bath... after tt makan mummy cooked de ‘ba guk teh’ … den heading out le… went to get 4D… den went to acc my frenz makan den go vivo… shop shop… vivo is big… but den like nth de lor.. I shop for a while.. and I juz got one top… that’s all for the day… dinner time.. but nv go makan can 3 plus we makan le.. so we juz go slack slack and till nitez lor… but seriously… I love the top.. hahaha.. white colour.. and it is nice la.. lol… hm sweet hm… zzz tml gt work… -.-‘’

@ 1:11 AM
bad day...
Fyp after sch… tired…
we try and calculate what we need to again… and realized that all along we calculated wrongly.. no wonder cant get the results la… juz some mistake la.. stupid faiz… give wrong info.. and we juz blindly trust him… stupid him and us… nvm.. at least we are still not very late.. haha… so still amendable.after tt meet my frenz.. actually wanna go shop shop.. but I left sch too late no time to shop oso… so slack lor… went to yishun dam… tok tok and enjoy the breeze… relax lor.. den go cofy...

bad thing happen.... we saw wingz n jas... she is shocked to see mi.. i mean nth shocking... i was toking to my frenz.. and i suddenly stop when i saw him... hmmm... at that instant... i felt low and lost... i cant even conti my conversation and yet have to bring myself back... feeling sux... realli hate to see him... dun wish to tink... u asked mi y i nt hugging ger ger... reason being.. i dun wan to.. i dun wan to see her animore.. yet i dun bear to keep it.. so i let it sit beside my pillow while i hug the tortoi to sleep... i even turned away and dun wan to face her... =( ... i guess one of this days i will juz keep it... dun wan to see it animore... it simply juz make mi think of things.. need to accept things tt are past.. over... need to be strong... i'm too emotional... my weakness point...haiz... tired... rest better... dun tink le... =`( .. sobz..

Friday, January 25, 2008 @ 11:53 AM
TGIF
hahaha... he's cute rite? hahaa black black de...tat' y i say look dirty ma...

9+ went to J8 find jie after makan.. den we go HD i tok to mama... he acc huihui smoke... tok tok tok after awhile i go find them... den stand there tok to them... can see that huihui veri sianz.. dun wan work.. sorry ger... i busy ma.. and ya partly abit dun wan work.. =x so like tt lor... after my sch den say ba... we walk walk around after hui go back work.. aeh... seriously J8 gt nth to walk.. -.-''' went back to shop around 10pm.. sitted at table 1 while waiting for her.. yawn~

finally we get out of J8 heading towards the POLICE POST!.. haha we did nth wrong dun worry... cuz of MISS TEO HUI HUI, JOLENE need to change her address ma.. if not she will kanna the letter of ADDRESS.. haha.. walk there.. long long walk... the police there quite @#@$#@ la... but aiyo juz finish the stuff and go lor.. dun care so much.. conti walk walk till st 22 lor.. makan kway chap... standard ma... haha.. sit there tok tok till 1 plus den go hm... tired.. but ok la.. today is fri ma..happy day haha... cuz weekend cuming.. can rest haha...

hmmm...today woke up give jie morning call.. is his book in day... smsed all the way till 11 plus.. which is juz now... den no reply le.. cant use phone le ba i guess... my dear boy... pls take care of yrself inside... u dun have to worry abt mi... worry for yrself 1st.. yr asthma... take care... see u when u out on CNY ba.. =) see u botak!

Friday, January 18, 2008 @ 3:30 PM
arggghhh

@ 1:33 PM
story
haha...conti my story...
went training at tue... valerie joined us as well.. my gers sat down in a circle and tok... hmmmm at least now they understand and know each one better...more bonded together.... after a long long talk with them.... abt 630 we start our training...i can see that they are more focus on training... perhaps after tt talk.. if so it's good... we went running... run quite fast today i mean all of them...serious in training... no shortcut... no grumble from them.. realli nice to see tt... after running... we conti PT from dr loke... haha.. i noe all of us are tired but we still conti to do till we can.. gd attitude and spirit.. that's wat i wan from them... realli glad to see them strive... nice to see them train real hard... gt improvement keep up good work... =) joined boy they all go makan... reached hm at 11+ 12... shagged... tired... i conti my wrapping.. tok on phone... den ZZZ..

wed.. veri veri tired... cuz zzz veri late.. but i still manage to reach sch on time... shagged out... conti my wire wrapping....but i do till veri fed up... cuz the connection veri messy... nvm.. dun care...after project.. go makan... den slack slack den go home... tired tired.. =(

thurs....
i'm totally drained out... tired till the max... almost late for sch... hahaha... actually dun feel like going sch... but oso dunno y juz go lor... wanna u turn when i reach woodlands... but we still continue walk la.. go sch den see how.. gd new.. when we reached class... Jeremy say today end early... hahhaa... hopefully end everytime at 2... in the end.. we end at 230.. but alrite la... i zzz straight after lesson.. when i woke up haha.. almost 4.. but shiok... at least i feel better.. after tt.. i tried to do my journal.. but juz wake up.. brain dead cant realli thing.. so give up on it... packed my bag and went to find boy... acc them eat and i waffle and tea... luckily i gt eat something... if not i tink i gonna die... training was tough.. we trained with the guys.. PBL coached us... haha.. but overall quite satisfy with it... at least all my gers try to finish it with this kind of condition... aching here and there... haha.. realli well done... gt improvement.. at least gt motivation for them... haha.. i can dun train leh.. but acc them lor.. see them like tt... muscles ache are nth.. hahaha... hm... finish my journal go tru abit of my stuff.. toking on phone... den i zzz.. =) finally...

today!..
muscles ache!!! cant go down the steps.. cant walk fast... arms aching.. basically everywhere lor... woke up at 740... muhahahaha.. kinda of late... rushed and reach sch at 845... i'm nt LATE!.. =) and i have finished my work...so i gt time to blog lor.. but i'm tired... dun realli wanna work.. but i guess i cant.. nt enuff staff...yawn~... tml going to training tml... wat will happen tml... i oso dunno... see how ba...

Tuesday, January 15, 2008 @ 2:05 PM
delete blog
visited all my old blog add... and delete those i haven... only left one.. den i guess i will nt detele... i cant bring myself to click the 'yes'... so i guess i will juz leave it there... a place where i blog my sadness and happiness... thing that i have done... which i have already stop blogging since july... i guess tt is where i should put an end and move one... thanz for the joy...

knowing u is the biggest thing in my life...
loving u in my pleasure...
hurting u is pain...
and
i will never forget..
the time we spent....
the most wonderful moment i ever had...
thanz...

@ 10:53 AM
more abt illness
hmmm.. last nitez.. get to noe more abt the illness.... bronchial asthma... all the signs and symptoms most of it bingo... searching tru the web looking for treatment... all i get is medication... inhaler... haiz... i guess that is the only way...

realli wish nth will happen... and i dun wan it to happen... it is fatal... we both noe it... realli scare one day u cant tak it... no longer have the strength to suppress it... pls take care...

speechless...

i miss your smile...
i miss the healthy you...
i miss the fun...
will i gt it again?

Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 2:26 PM
fucking animal
sux sux sux.... hate this... if tt is the case y must he cum back... back for shit... back den kanna sack once again by him... jus treat him like a dog... he realli animal.. haiz.. the fun n enjoy juz last about 1 day plus.. haiz.. i juz no mood.. moody.. yes.. initially i wanted to join u all go makan... i wan to... but i realli no mood... nt at all.. i dun wan go ruin u all de mood.. i noe myself... i noe i cant control.. i noe... so i dun wanna go...

took train from bishan to amk... walked the path i usually walk... down the road and to the indian muslim shop... bought a pack of teh terik... and continue my journey home... walk as slow as possible.. took the longest route.. slowly walk and relax myself...walked in the silent nitez.. letting the breeze blow... reached my blk... sat under my void deck... drinking my tea.. let my tears flow as they wish... no longer wanna hold back or control animore.. i'm juz sad... haiz... y muz be u again... y muz be mi... i realli duno y... like reuben say... u fucked his wife issit... juz hate it... realli hate it... sux... i dun wanna ruin yr mood... and i'm veri sorry... when i make this move i ruin u... pls dun drink animore... i dun wan u to...pls take care... pls.. when reuben tok to mi.. i cried.. i dun need him to tell mi hw much u drank i dun wish to noe.... i noe... if i were there things will be diff...much diff... sorri... went home at 145+am... i have to zzz cuz next day training + work... if nt i wun even wanna go hm... juz too low...

i woke up the next day... went for a run... shiok.. realli shiok..went for training as well.. joined xiuling for training..gave in my best in shuttle drill... smashing and running... i'm quite happy to hear that all my seniors will be back to play badminton..cuz they are my team... =) after all exercise is still the best for mi esp when i'm moody... it will juz make mi feel better...left school.. went off with Ryan my didi... acc him go makan den i go makan myself... he late for work ma... reached shop... start work awhile den reuben start toking to mi... smoking break... chat... sir went off at 9 plus.. he say wanna go look for him... i gave him his address.. all i wish is tt he is fine...i owe him too much....

sunday...
when to look for jie in the morning...845am met him...not feeling well... looked weak.. realli helpless.. dunno how i should help him... i hurt him too much... went to work at 12pm... and the animal crowd started...non-stop... realli animal...till nitez help sir do inventory,punch card and count the petty cash.. i realli wanna doze off when i'm calculating the petty cash.. reached hm at 1pm.. and sms started till i doze off... i realli hurt him deep...

today...
i promised you...
no matter wat happened
when i sad or happy
u will be next to mi to see mi smile...
comfort me when i cry...
be my veri veri close frenz...
remember wat u owe mi...
my songs...
thanz for everything...
i appreciate it..
=)

Friday, January 11, 2008 @ 2:28 PM
IVP
hmmm... finally IVP finished... we won ITE.. haha i guess tt is the only sch we can win... aniway we have to win la.. cuz last year we won ma... so this year also muz... hehe ok... problematic kids... team nt veri united... haiz.. see them like tt i realli feel like crying sia... when they have a team, they dunno how to cherish it.. my time.. i wanna train and cherish... but there is no team... all my girls.. now depends on u all lor.. pls pls pls.. all of u are talented... train well and beat the rest!!.. i guess i will commit more to the team.. at least bond them be4 i grad... hope things will be settle sooon... veri sooon.. i left only a month...

back to HD... jie is back!!!! gd gd... yeah.. yesterday 1st day of work.. at least he back i'm nt tt fierce?.. this muz ask the new staffs over there haha.. =x more fun and joy ma... but i'm tired!! nv zzz well.. bleah... although it is only for one or two weeks.. i will appreciate it... =)

time flies.... grad soon... i wanna study.. but realli scare i cant get into uni... only 3.54GPA.. thing might nt be tt smooth for mi... haiz.. hope ba.. will mux see the tian liao.... sianz....

Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 2:08 AM
heart
i miss his mummy again...
it's juz torturing...
when will i stop thinking?
i realli wonder..

thinking back...
i suddenly have this feeling...
i really dun like him to leave mi..
esp in the morning when he woke up..
without informing mi..
he did this cuz dun wan disturb mi..

however..
i..
felt sad..
felt lonely..
felt neglect..
haiz...

i miss him??
he is hers...
my dear heart...
let go of wat u need to...

i guess i'm realli tired...
or too much strength..
if nt y am i still tinking...
kill cells..


=..(

@ 1:41 AM
罗志祥-做得到

Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ 2:08 AM
2008
y am i tinking so much... this is the 1st year after soooo long tt i nv celevrate my xmas and new year with wingz... i guess 2008 is realli a new year... without wingz... without charlie.. without my uncle in law... without granny... without the fun i guess.. haiz... things are changing... i cant stop it... i have to accept it.. but..i juz cant accept.. or dun wan to accept???

so funni...

y am i still tinking so much... too much... too silly
is none of my business...
i dun need to tink so much...
my heart oh my heart can u juz let go wat u have too...
dun make yrself so miserable..
kan kai dian ar...

life...
ups and downs...
when will be the up and the down...
haiz...

falling sick soon...
hope nt...
sianz..
veri indeed..