Tuesday, September 28, 2010 @ 4:30 AM
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Whenever i looked back, i feel sad. Sad tt we cant try out. Sad tt we are nt tgt. Sad tt i have let u slipped off my hands. Sad tt u have hurt mi so much. I can still feel the hurt n pain when i talked abt our stuffs. I will still cry when i mentioned abt us. u have realli hurt mi alot.
I can nv forget tt i woke up every middle of the nite juz to see my phone to check whether u sent any msg to mi. Hoping tt u will juz text mi. But everytime i go back to sleep with disappoinment. Realli speechless.
At tt point of time, i noe tt i love u alot. All i want is to shower n pamper u with my love. But b4 i have the chance, u chose to leave n went back to her.
I nv blame u for making such decision cuz i noe tt i cant give u anithing. All i could is juz give u my blessing. I have tot of tking the risk n gamble despite of the high price im gonna pay. U can say im silly but this is hw much u mean to mi.
However As time goes by, It seems like u dun even bother much abt mi animore. Im no longer impt , nt even basic concern. N i alot other stuffs tt its realli hard for mi to accept. i realized tt the age gap between us is still there. I can only accept u r still young.
Right nw, i have already sorted out my tots n im veri happy with wat i have nw. Yes no doubt its veri wasted tt we didnt try it out but i have to accept tt sometimes something in life is fated nt to have. Smth are meant to let go. N in my life u are tt smth.
Thanks for leaving good memories. Im glad tt we both enjoyed ourselves during tt period. I guess those are the best thing u can give mi.
Will nt contact u tt often cuz i should care for u lesser. Hwever, if u need help u can always look for mi. Will help if i can. Take care my dearest boy. Hope thing goes well for u. :) gd bye my friend.
